Friday, June 20, 2008

There's not enough time in the world.

Recently I've been slowly developing a fear of time. It's been passing by so fast that I've grown worried that I'm not getting the most of it. Actually, I know I'm not making the most of it. Really though, who does? Because I work so much now, I really haven't had much time to sit down and think. Lately, when I do get a chance, I tend to look back on the past 4 years or so. So much yet so little has happened. That sounds confusing I know. I guess what I'm getting at is a lot of the things I thought were going to happen didn't, but in that there's been a lot of unexpected surprises as well. I know life comes at you fast, but I haven't experienced it as much as I have since I've been in college. Since college (we can even narrow that down to my transfer to Champlain) I've experienced the following...
  • Death of a close loved one - Even if I'm partically referring to my dog (my other dog and great grandmother recently passed), I was very close to him and I don't think I could ever repay him for the loyalty and love he showed for me.
  • Debt - I don't mean school loans here, although they've been quite a heavy load as well.
  • Living with roommates - In the dorms and in my new apartment. Either way it's been quite an experience.
  • Living completely by myself - We all know that was the weirdest situation I could have gotten into.
  • Turning 21! - I think I might actually drink less then I did before I was of age. I have however developed a recent tolerance to beer. Blue Moon owns my fridge.
  • Complete Independence - From grocery shopping to rent. All on my own.
  • Working Full Time - The downfall to the above.
  • Promotion - I've gotten a raise or maybe been able to work in a different area of a job, but I've never been actually promoted.
  • Being in charge of fellow employees - With the promotion came power. Now for once, I get to tell the people I work with what to do.
  • Experimentation - I'm referring to substances here, although the older I get, the more people seem to want to kiss you on the mouth rather than your cheek.
Obviously there's a lot more but this list covers the important stuff. I didn't really plan on making a list till I got to thinking out loud. I just wish that life didn't come down to time, which in the end gets filled up with work. So really, living is to work? I hope that one day I can turn that around so that work is living.

That doesn't make any sense.

Anyways... Bonnaroo was good. I think we had too high of expectations and it wasn't able to live up to last year, but in the end, it was still good. As you can see, I've also gotten better at creating run-on sentences. The yota is fixed as well. I'm proud to say that I DO NOT miss the nagging comments, cheers from frat boys, and shrieks of terror from McDonalds employees over how loud it was. Really, it could be 5 miles from complete breakdown, and I would still drive the thing those last 5. AND speaking of time, I would like to apologize to anyone looking forward to seeing me home at the diner monday. I simply didn't have enough.