08/09

Just like every other year of my life, 2008 was quite eventful. 2009 should also be. A lot of changes will occur, both planned and not. Somehow though, this year has yet to feel new. I still feel the same I did wednesday. I'm not rejuvenated with resolutions. Instead I'm enjoying my same old pace.

Are the days you spend lying around a waste?

I don't think so...

... Reflecting is good.

Give me miles and miles of mountains, and I'll ask for the sea

I know I said I wasn't gonna tell anyone my plans because I change my mind too much, and to be quite frank, my mind is different since then, BUT I've made a final decision. Savannah, Georgia. I've actually known this for a long time, but there were always other options that were maybes. Now after being home for the first time in months, I realize I don't belong there. I love my family and friends in PA, but Philly will always be my home. I realized this weekend that it's a place that I can always come back to. It's not going anywhere. Part of the epiphany was also coming to terms with the fact that I like being on my own. I like being away from it all, coming and going as I please. I will always love Burlington and the people I've come across living here, but that doesn't make it the right place for me. I'm just putting my foot down and going for it.

Decisions are made and not bought, But I thought this wouldn't hurt a lot. I guess not.

Just an FYI, I'm not always an emo case...

I'm in love with MGMT! I guess you could argue some of the lyrics are slightly "emo", but really, few lyrics in the world aren't. I suggest all their songs, especially Electric Feel if you're in a dance party kind of mood. Justice does a pretty good remix of that song.

Seeing Things

I keep finding these "signs" that I think are hinting at what I am suppose to do. I'm not sure if I really believe in signs, but these are really weird coincidences. Maybe its my conscience just helping me figure out what I really want. Sometimes I believe our conscience has more of a voice then we think, like dreams for instance. It may not be that far off to think that something deep inside is making certain things stand out in order to help me answer my questions. That's probably all signs are, your brain helping you to tap into what you really want.

Either way... I think I found my answer. I'm not telling anyone because we all know I'm bound to change my mind.

I'm screaming for something...

On My Own - The Used

See all those people on the ground
Wasting time
I try to hold it all inside
But just for tonight
The top of the world
Sitting here wishing
The things I've become
That something is missing
Maybe I...
But what do I know

And now it seems that I have found
Nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
Slow it down, slow it down
Without it all
I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

On my own... On my own... On my own... On my own
On my own... On my own

Without it all
I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

On my own... On my own... On my own... On my own

My head hurts. I think to much, and then get lost in my thoughts. I can never come out with a clear answer. I've become the most indecisive person in the world. I'm trying to think about my future here, think about me, but all that I end with are the people I love. What about them? What happens to them in my final decision? Do I loose them or does the distance make us closer? I don't want to loose anyone. I don't want to just remember anyone. I want everyone to follow me where ever I go, forever...

I'm trying to pick my next step, or rather the school I finally commit myself to. All three are in very different locations. All three have pros and cons. UArts, SCAD, or Burlington College??? Everyone has a choice for me, but no one's providing the correct argument. I don't want to make this decision on my own, but I guess I'll have to.

Killadelphia

I love that I call Philly my home. I love that Philly is the only city that you don't actually have to live in to call home. A lot of people don't understand this logic, but if you're from the area, then you know what I'm talking about. Mostly, I LOVE the people. We are diehards down in the 215. We do everything to the max, especially when it comes to supporting our teams. With our luck (this being that we haven't won a sports championship in 25 years) most people would have lost hope. Not us! Whether we win or loose, we love every single player who represents our city. "Brotherly Love" could never reign so true anywhere else.

Tonight the only sports team that I actually follow won the World Series. The WORLD fucking SERIES! I hate television, but spending hours on end, day after day, has never been more worth it. My boys came in as the underdog. All sports professionals were leaning for the other team. But, WE won. Not them. Us! I seriously believe this time a lot of it was due to the fans. All those people who spent the hours watching. All those people who flew down to Florida for games 1 & 2. All those people who sat in the freezing ass rain with our boys for 6 and 1/2 innings only to have the game be post-poned. Mostly, of those people, the 99% who dropped plans to come back 2 days later, and give our team the same hope and confidence needed to take it all.

I LOVE PHILLY, and I Love all of you who love it too.

Magic.



It only gets better.



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she's a lady

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