Decisions are made and not bought, But I thought this wouldn't hurt a lot. I guess not.

Just an FYI, I'm not always an emo case...

I'm in love with MGMT! I guess you could argue some of the lyrics are slightly "emo", but really, few lyrics in the world aren't. I suggest all their songs, especially Electric Feel if you're in a dance party kind of mood. Justice does a pretty good remix of that song.

Seeing Things

I keep finding these "signs" that I think are hinting at what I am suppose to do. I'm not sure if I really believe in signs, but these are really weird coincidences. Maybe its my conscience just helping me figure out what I really want. Sometimes I believe our conscience has more of a voice then we think, like dreams for instance. It may not be that far off to think that something deep inside is making certain things stand out in order to help me answer my questions. That's probably all signs are, your brain helping you to tap into what you really want.

Either way... I think I found my answer. I'm not telling anyone because we all know I'm bound to change my mind.

I'm screaming for something...

On My Own - The Used

See all those people on the ground
Wasting time
I try to hold it all inside
But just for tonight
The top of the world
Sitting here wishing
The things I've become
That something is missing
Maybe I...
But what do I know

And now it seems that I have found
Nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
Slow it down, slow it down
Without it all
I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

On my own... On my own... On my own... On my own
On my own... On my own

Without it all
I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

On my own... On my own... On my own... On my own

My head hurts. I think to much, and then get lost in my thoughts. I can never come out with a clear answer. I've become the most indecisive person in the world. I'm trying to think about my future here, think about me, but all that I end with are the people I love. What about them? What happens to them in my final decision? Do I loose them or does the distance make us closer? I don't want to loose anyone. I don't want to just remember anyone. I want everyone to follow me where ever I go, forever...

I'm trying to pick my next step, or rather the school I finally commit myself to. All three are in very different locations. All three have pros and cons. UArts, SCAD, or Burlington College??? Everyone has a choice for me, but no one's providing the correct argument. I don't want to make this decision on my own, but I guess I'll have to.